Testing One, Two, Three…


It’s been there for over a year now.

Sitting right on my computer desk.

One of the things I brought home from Richard’s apartment was that microcassette recorder pictured above. There were several cassettes, all looking new and unused.

I finally popped them into the recorder and hit play.

They were mostly blank.

But on one was Richard’s voice, “Testing one, two, three, four, five…” Yes he was thorough.

It was nice to hear his voice again, like it sounded just 14 months ago. I wish there had been more.

We have many videos of the kids. I haven’t developed the courage yet to watch them. But I think they were all from a time when he was young, still just a child. As he reached the teens and young adulthood he didn’t cooperate much with the movie thing.

So this cassette may be the only recording of his adult voice.

I’d like to hear the real thing, live.

But maybe it’s better than nothing.


2 responses to “Testing One, Two, Three…”

  1. I’ve just lost my son Ben aged 34. He was shockingly burned in a house fire and we thought he might survive but it wasn’t to be. Four days after his accident he died (this morning at 8am) His sisters and mother are inconsolable and I’m very sad too. I’m not religious at all but I know from personal experience that our consciousness isn’t dependant on a physical body to exist. I’ve read about the thousands of near death experiences and how people experience the same thing irrespective of culture or creed. Studies by hyperdimensional physicists also indicate that our essential being doesn’t die, it’s eternal. From this I “know” [I don’t believe] that death is a lie, the biggest con job since the dawn of man. A means by which we are kept in fear and under the control of the State and the Church. My son isn’t dead he’s back home for the time being. Whether he returns in another body or not is a decision made by he and his creator (whoever or whatever that may be).

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